For my Daughter
- Sevon Lee
- Feb 1, 2019
- 2 min read
November 2, 2018
The pain of not having you in my life, in the way that every father dreams of, will never be strong enough to move me from my position, or fade even the smallest amount of this love that I have for you. Every day, every choice, every word that I ever spoke, was with only one driving purpose, for you. It is not your fault that you were born into such a cursed world, and that the pain you suffer is undeserved. I want you to know that it was not our fault either, your mother and myself. Nor is it anyones fault that shares this world with you.
The most any person can ever do here is to be true to who they really are and to continue fixing what was already broken, making goodness out of the bitterness, and to make new roads for yourself when every path laid before you leads only to more pain. My only desire in this life is to make the earth a safe and delightful place for you to run and to play, without fear, without restrictions, and in the confidence that it is your playground. I made it all especially for you.
I have given you the tools you will need, to find, to grow, and to fight in this battle that we have all inherited together. For you and for your sisters whom you will come to love I will give you this threefold name. The keys to your kingdom,
Hannah... this name is my gift in the way that it is spelled the same, forwards and back. Your mother was a safe heaven, into whom I poured my love and trust. You enter and exit her world as safely and imperceptibly as you desire.
Penny... your name is the beauty of treasure found by my soul, whom others pass by, unaware of your worthyness. Your mother is the wildest beating of my heart, whom i cannot deny. You will be treasured and never lost, no matter where you might find yourself.
Victoria... you are a miraculous shot into the darkness of an eternal void. Just the smallest spark of a love so pure that it can never be extinguished. Your mother is the seduction of lies, and the passionate writhing of flesh that needs fervent release. The ring in her voice is the only surviving piece of my fury, that lives on forever, in you.....
Angels you are, the only one for me, and for me you are all only one. My Angel, you know. The heavens themselves stop to witness the moments we find together in this perfect unity of love. And for me, there will never be anyone else...
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